the best part

We talked softly

While our eyes are heavy and sleepy

But with woke minds

And loving hearts

We recalled our plans

And I thanked the universe

Because the best part was

I get to be the lucky one

Inside your arms


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Overthinker | Thinkover 1

There is no perfect. There will always be struggle. You just need to choose who you wanna struggle with.”

This is the line from the movie I was so deep into last night. What is “struggle” in this context?

So, there’s this girl that I love, deeply love,  who can’t quite grasp the concept that I am frigid with other people and very sensual and passionate with her. I love to love her, there’s nothing wrong with that.

I just can’t wait for the day that she becomes the woman I see her to become… so we can face the struggles and fight the battles that matter. We can’t even start from step one.

She’s far from perfect but she is my perfect and I won’t elaborate.

I’m not going to give you any further cliches.

I love her but I think the struggles we’re facing now isn’t really the struggles in that concept.

Does giving up mean you don’t truly love her?  I don’t think so.

I think it’s the biggest sacrifice to accept that you’re the lesson she needs or the wake up call she has to take for a better relationship in her future.

She’s gonna hate you for it. She won’t understand or maybe she will and you’ll see her blossom and succeed in this part of her life. By then, if it happens to her at least I knew that I really love to love what she loves.



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April 18, 2018


I’d give anything to have a little peak of what’s on your mind.

So i’d know when you’re hurt, when you feel most love, happy, sad and all there is to feel.

But I can’t and we’re bound to do this thing called “communication” to let someone else know our thoughts and feelings.

I love intimate conversations. I love the ones that make me laugh, or when someone tells me something so pure it makes my tears fall down uncontrollably.  I feel that having an open communication with your partner is what the relationship is about. It shows how you really love, trust and respect the person to extend a part of yourself that no one else sees. The good side and the bad side.

I remember the show How I Met Your Mother, one of the co-writers created Lily and Marshall because he wanted to share how her relationship is with his wife. Lily and Marshall knew their darkest secrets, their ugly traits, they both shared overcoming heartaches with their family members, careers and everyday struggles… everything shared with each other. Each day finding comfort that they both got each other no matter what.

At one point they both needed a break and thought it was the end but eventually found their way back much stronger and wiser.

I hope we find that love that’ll help us pursue life to the fullest. The one that you’ll never have to worry you’ll get hurt or be left behind. A love that’s true you won’t ever think twice of your worth or what you deserve in life. The one that doesn’t need involvement of other people. The one that doesn’t diminish your self-worth and self-love.

I’m praying to get to that higher place.

And I hope you get there too, reader.